“Maybe self-improvement isn’t the answer, maybe self-destruction is the answer.” Chuck Palahniuk
I’ve gotten to the point where, if I’m being honest, I’m just freakin ass tired of reading the same self-improvement blather from one book to another.
You know the stuff, ‘you can do it’… uh, no I can’t or I’d done it already.
‘You are great!’ Really? I can point to more than a few times where I’m feeling pretty not great, in fact, downright angry. Especially at this happy crap I’m reading right now.
And I’m angry at myself. Why couldn’t I stick to things I wanted but kept giving up on myself and my dreams? When I look around why do I find so much of my life I”m grateful for and yet so much still missing? Why does everything feel so hard and take so long and…
Enough. It’s time to tear some shi* up.
You get to the point where you’ve had it. I’m taking up the self-destruction habit. No, I’m not going to sabotage myself, do something stupid or anything that is going to knowingly cause me harm.
I’m going to channel my anger of how I perceive this mediocre life and live ‘without mercy’. If I’m not happy with something I have, it’s gone! If I’m not happy with something I’m doing, stop it! Cold turkey style! If’ I find I’m doing things half ass then I’m going to get on it and go 100%. Likewise, if there is something I truly want to experience in my life, I’m going all in. It’s no longer going to be a question of ‘if’. If no longer exists for me. It’s only a question of when.
So guys, if you’re sitting there reading this and feeling at all royally peeved at yourself or your life right now, forget about self-improvement.
Break out the self-destruction habit.